Sweet home Oklahoma

So it has been a long time since I have blogged and a lot has happened. Shane took his AT-SAT test a few months ago, it's an aptitude test for the FAA. And he got a 100 on it. He is very smart and I knew he would do well and pass, but he got a 100 it was so relieving to here the good news! We thought that after he passed the test it would be at least 6-8 months before he would have to attend the Air Traffic Controller Academy in Oklahoma City, but here we are already in Oklahoma and he starts school this Monday. I was excited and sad to leave. I am going to miss my Dad and brothers and sister terribly, as well as my mom and everyone else! Ashlee misses everyone already! 2 hours into the 20 hour car ride she asked," Mommy where are we going? I want to go home," she kept asking the same question about every 5-10 minutes the WHOLE drive. I felt bad and just told her that we were going to go to daddy's new work and she asked me if she could see the airplanes there. It was too cute!
Everyone told me Oklahoma was flat and humid. I don't think it is as flat as some parts of Texas, and the humidity here is horrible!!! Yesterday we took Ashlee to the zoo for her birthday and we could only stay 2 and a half hours because we were dripping in sweat and I felt ill. With the humidity it makes it seem as if it were 115 degrees out! Ashlee loves it here, the house we are at has a HUGE backyard and she can just roam freely to her little hearts extent. I can tell at times she is really bored because we were not able to bring a lot of her toys and I feel terrible. SO I try to keep her busy, coloring and blowing bubbles. I think I am going to take a trip to the store this week and pick her up some things to play with.
Before we left California we had a Swimming party for her at my dads and she had such a great time. Thanks to everyone who came. She LOVED all of her gifts and we took the majority of the ones she got with us. We had gotten her a new DVD player that has a huge screen and it moves so you can adjust it to your comfort and that thing is the best gift we could have given her, or should I say us?? It keeps her content and me relaxed so everyone stays happy.
I am enjoying our relaxing weekend, trying to adjust to the time change its 2 hours different and Ash is having a hard time with it. She wakes up at the crack of dawn and goes to bed at 12-1. I am sleep deprived but hopefully things will get better! Wish us luck!

Sooo....

The phone rings this morning and its the urgent care doctor we took Ashlee to last friday and he had some helpful/bad news. While we were there Ash took a urine sample and he calls us just now with the results, she has a VERY high level of infection in her urine...... poor baby she has been going, who knows how long with a UTI (urinary Tract infection)eeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgggggghhhh, I wanted to smack that doctor. It took a week for a urine test. What the heck.. so now I have to go pick up her medicine at the pharmacy. It explains it all..... I hate that doctors office. I am switching her pediatrician. We dont pay 200 dollars a for that.

Finally!!

Ok I know I said that I would update more, but I donno maybe this just isn't my thing. I want to keep trying though. So it has been about two months or so since I posted last and ALOT has happened since then. We got some really good news, Shane gets to take the test for the FAA and if he passes we are set, hopefully lol. He takes the test on friday and I am praying every night that he does past. If he does he will have to wait to get a job offer from the Palmdale facility and we should be going to Oak city (oklahoma) by christmas I hope. We will be there for three months, if I decide to go out there. It's very expensive. Pray for us!!! I have recently decided that I am going back to school on June 15 and I am going to be taking a heavy summer load of classes and when fall comes around an even bigger schedule of classes. I want my Associates outta the way. After I get that I am going to transfer to CSUB (Bakersfield) Its next to AVC. Im excited.
Anyway's Ashlee has gotten really big, Easter was good. We got to see family and relaxed. She has been going to her weekly dance and she loves it. She made a best friend and every day she asks for Abby her friend. I was searching around town for things we could do together and found My First Gym. It's a baby play facility and baby gym with EVERY F R I C K I N toy you can imagine, they have a trampoline, baby roller coaster, treehouse thing, play houses, little street bikes, cars, obstacle courses, balance beams, ball pit. Its awesome!! She loves it, every time we walk in her jaw drops to the floor. And the best part is the owner is VERY sanitary, they get their carpet cleaned every sunday, only socks allowed, and you have to use purell before and after. And if your kid looks sick they cant play. We missed last week due to a very sick Ash. On friday we woke up and I thought she felt warm so I took her temp and it was 102.6 and I gave her some tylenol. I thought it was just teething. So we go on with the day and at nap time she goes to sleep with NO problem at all, I even fell asleep to. She woke me up about twenty minutes later vomiting and her temp said 104.8 I have a braun ear thermometer so I knew it wasnt that far off. I threw some clothes on and took her to urgent car IMMEDIATLEY because the medicine was not working and she looked really sick. I thought she was going to have a seizure on the way there. I have never seen a kid so sick. So we get there and I sign in, Ash is laying in my arms limp everyone was staring and one lady asked what was wrong with her and I told her what her temp read and she advised me to go and tell the receptionist. So I did and she rudely told me to have a seat and said they'll be with me when they get to me. I hate california doctors, compared to Neveda this is hell. We finally get called and her temp was down to 103.5 and the doctors are dumbfounded they have no clue whats wrong with her. She had no symptoms no runny nose no ear ache and she had not vomited before that one time. nothing. So they had her get x-rays of her whole body and found she had A HUGE bubble in her stomach. The doctor had noticed her tummy was swollen, he said the bubble was so big it would be unconfortable for a full grown adult. They also said her heart rate was high. SO they ordered every blood test you could do to make sure there wasn't any viral infections. It was so horrible she already hates the doctors when we go for check-ups. She cried and I could not here a word the doctors were saying. We waited for about an hour for all the results and the pediatrician to come in and tell us that she has constipation and she has a flu virus but no symptoms of a flue except a fever...... errrrgggh I was so mad we were there for 4 hours. He told us to get some fiber and cut her off from milk for a few days. So we went home and her fever went down to 101.0 after we gave her motrin. We thought we were in the clear but at 4 in the morning we woke up to her screaming it was at 104 AGAIN!! So we gave her a luke warm bath and put some cool towels on her belly and head and gave her tylenol and it went away. Whew, I don't know what was wrong but she is ok now. Thank goodness.

Its been a while....

So in the last few weeks we have done SO many things. We went to Disney land which was SOO much fun. My dad, Destiny, Nick, Brian and Joey came too, Ashlee had the best time. She is the happiest kid ever when Joey and Brian and Destiny are anywhere with her. We also went to neveda and we had a lot of fun snowboarding and Ash even got to snowboard with Shane on his board and she loved it. She has no fear im telling you!!!

I am EXTREMELY excited for tomorrow morning becasue it is Ashlee's FIRST ballet class, it is a mommy and me class. The only one that I could find for toddlers 18mos and up. I am so excited we took her to get her first ballet shoes they're so cute and small, and her leotards and some ballet pants. She is going to be a little dancer, she loves to dance, she can dance to no music at all its really cute. I need to find my camera and I will take pics tomorrow and post them when we get back. I am dissapointed that the class is only 35mins but i guess toddlers dont have an attention span that big. I can't wait!!!
Ashlee is getting so big, I miss having a little cuddly baby around the house but I am glad that she is maturing and becoming more independant. She goes on the potty now, not exclusively but when I wake up we go striaght to the bathroom so she can do her thing and usually the rest of the day she wears underwear and rarely has an accident. I put diapers on her right after dinner and while she sleeps. But I think that she is doing good for only 19 mos. She can also recite her abc's and sign them to me all the way up to s. She is so smart. Well I WILL post tomorrow!
Jess

It looks like we are taking a road trip.....

SO after talking to Shane's mom yesterday she offered to pay for us to drive out and go snowboarding so we are leaving friday and coming back on tuesday night. I am excited to go but I HATE the drive... its a 7-11 hour drive depending on stops and Miss Ashlee who doesn't do well in the car, and weather. We have to drive through Bishop and mammoth and its really scary for me I get full on anxiety/panick attacks to the point where I am hyperventallating and sick to my stomach. I need some type of medication to sedate me lol. Well besides the drive I can't wait.



Velentines day is around the corner and I have no clue what I am getting Shane, I know he is taking us all to disneyland and maybe the SD Zoo. I love the zoo and I think that Ashlee is old enough to sort of understand Disney Land or at least she will enjoy it, I hope.

Shane has been waiting for a check from lockheed for quite sometime now we expected it would be here by Christmas and when it failed to show up we we just gave up on it.... and last week we put in a change of address over the internet, literally the day after he got word that the check should be in our mail box within the week. WELL.... just our luck!!!!!!!!! It's lost all of our mail is, not only have we not seen the check or his w-2's we havent seen anything except some junk ads!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SO FRUSTERATING !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The postal system is such a joke im telling you. Anyway's I have been promising new pics and I swear I am getting around to it but I have been so busy so hopefully I can post them tomorrow.

I've officially been to every store today....

Well I woke up bright and early this morning in hopes of finding Ash a new kitchen since I didn't like the other one. Easier said than done. In hopes of findning it at our Toys R us I went and waited 35 minutes while they searched the store and sadly they didnt have it so I started calling around lancaster to target and walmart, then to palmdale. I drove to Sears, 2 Walmarts and a Target without ANY luck. Was on hold for an accumlative time of a little over an hour..... and finally found the one I was in search of at the Valencia Toys R us. I went and picked it up and I was so flustered because all I had gone through. At least Ash was a little ANGEL in the car the whole way there and back and she even got a Caillou DVD because that is now her favorite show. I let her watch 30mins of TV a day and that is her choice.... The kitchen took matt Shane'sbrother (I paid him to put it together) an hour and a half to put together and like 15 minutes for ALL the stickers. I think it is toooo cute, Ash loves it to she cooks for me and wears her little cupcake chef hate and looks AdOrAbLe !!!!! I am going to find my camera in all of our moving boxes and take some pics tomorrow. I'll try to write tomorrow too. Im on a ROLL!!!

I had to start a new blog...

Well I have been meaning to post new blogs but I lost my password and whatever. Awell, This is my new one and I will do my best to post a couple times or more a week.



We moved out of our Town Home due to the fact we need to save for a house and Shane will be going to Oklahoma at some point within the next 6-8months for his new job as an airtraffic controller. It is only temporary and its for 3 months of training. We figure we will probably be there for Christmas, figures. We moved into my moms house which I am starting to realize I hate it and we may just go get a cheaper apartment for the mean time.

Ashlee is almost 19months and going on 13 she is very mature for her age, at least in my opinion. She is a little handful. She is a little attention hog, she has to have the spotlight on her at all times, even when we are at the grocery store she yells hello until the nearest person says hi back. I am going to start putting her on the potty more often right now she goes on it about 4 times a week, and I think I can now get rid of the diapers, SLOWLY. I hate diapers I am so tired of them!!!!

Anyways, about me now. I am not working at Kohl's anymore I don't need to money wise and they weren't allowing me enough hours if I was lucky I would get 4-6 a week. So I said the heck with it. I still have no energy EVERY day, I find it a struggle to get out of bed, or to do the simplest tasks, I feel guilty or like im not a good enough mom because I am usually depressed about having no energy. I am in dire need to go see the doctor but I refuse to take medications at all, I dont even take anything over the counter unless I am forced to. I also have anxiety attacks. I love those, there great.... NOT. And to top it all off most nights I lay in bed and think that I am going to die or that someone close to me is going to die and I freak myself out. Its horrible I dont know what to do if I should call my doctor or if that is even who I'm supposed to call. I am crazy its ok you can think it too, but It isn't really a joking matter I think I need to seek professional help. Well I will leave it at that.....